Thursday, 19 June 2008
none of my sisters wished me. mum text messaged me. giving some words for me to reflect on the life thats ahead of me. i know i have sinned a lot. its not time to settle down. some friends did wished too. those expected didn't. those unexpected did. and i feel like my world is turning upside down when i spent the whole day at home doing nothing. had this empty feeling inside me the whole day, especially on this day. hardly any excitement. celebrations, none. just me on this special day of mine. makes me wanna cry.
for a while i thought i was being surprised, cos i saw a series of small fireworks thru my balcony windows, not wow-ing as those u see during big events like in the Olympics, they sparked colorfully above in the dark sky of bedok reservoir. it was nice. now i could brag that somebody surprised me and did fireworks for me on my birthday, but i don't know who. could be an admirer. so i thanked those bunch of kids playing with those mini fireworks. i feel slightly happy suddenly.
19, last year of being a teenager. kinda hard to believe but i'm stepping into adulthood. how i wished i was 8 again. like that movie. 13 going on 30. this time its the opposite. being young again. feeling no stress. think about it... stop.
~ what future awaits me, i don't even know. only GOD.
bear with me.
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